My boyfriend treats me like a queen… but I’m terrified that if I marry him, I’ll die giving birth to our child.
My boyfriend treats me like a queen… but I’m terrified that if I marry him, I’ll die giving birth to our child.
I love him. I really do. If you ask me, he is almost everything I have ever wanted in a man. He is the kind of man every woman dreams of finding. He is kind, he always keeps his word, he stands up every time I walk into a room, and he treats me with a level of respect I never thought was possible. He is emotionally mature, communicates openly, and whenever we have a disagreement, he refuses to let us go to bed without talking it through, no matter who was wrong.
But there is another man in the picture.
With him, I can see opportunities that could completely change my future. I believe he could support me after university if I decide to study abroad or pursue a better career. The problem is that I do not love him the way I love my boyfriend.
Then there is another fear. He serves in the military, which means he is constantly away, and in that line of work, tomorrow is never guaranteed. He is serious about me, wants to marry me, and dreams of building a family together. Yet every time I imagine that future, one terrifying thought refuses to leave my mind. If I marry him and we have children, I am haunted by the fear that I might not survive the delivery room if something goes wrong.
